My motto...

Yeah... I've came up with my motto... Are you ready for it? Well, here it is...

Life is short - enjoy it!!!

Learned my lesson after I found out my grandma was dying of breast cancer... By that time, it was already too late to try to appreciate what she have done for me. Now, I live day by day. If I were to plan something, it's only until the week ahead or the month ahead. I still don't know what to do with my life. Which is like sad. Most of my mates already have plans on what they wanna do, but not me. I have this mentality of enjoying life cos you never know when you're going to die. It could be today, tomorrow, next week... You'll never know when you're going up to heaven or hell, unless if you're God or his helpers... Oh crap... I'm starting to write rubbish...

Was reminiscing bout my secondary school life and was thinking bout this stupid bitch whom, I've just realised that she's like Bulldog... Well, what happened was I said to her that I thought this junior was quite pretty. It's not that I'm homo or anything... It's just a comment, but she took it as if I like that girl and went on to tell the whole world. She even went and told that girl. Hence I was known as a lesbian... So, I didn't do anything bout it but just played along with dat rumours and only then, I realised people can't be trusted. Up till now, I can't trust people, not even my close friends. It was like my trick to know whom I can trust and whom I can't. So, in Sec 4, I told this stupid, fucking irrittating bitch, who was two years my junior that I had a dream bout her girl and thought that she was cute (She's freaking ugly by the way... Her bro was my primary school friend). What I told her was not true of course, it's just a trick to know if she can be trusted... And true enough, she can't cos that girl asked me if it was true that I like her... Ha ha... Even if I was a guy, I would not even be interested in her... She's so freaking ugly...

I really have to make this clear. I am straight... It's just that growing up, I hang out too much with my guy friends that at times, I do think like them... Who wouldn't if they keep saying that this girl is hot or dat girl is ugly... I like hanging out with them cos they treat me as one of the guys. If I were to hang out with the gals, most of the time, they would be talking bout fashion which I'm not interested in... And they do kinda treat me differently cos I'm a tomboy and not like them, acting like a fucking bitch... Thank God, that the mates that I have now are not like that... I have such good time hanging with this 5, that I'm gonna miss them when we graduate... Also, not forgeting those peeps in my FYP group and some who are not in... Thanks guys for all the good times...