In The Loving Memory of Panky (?-2005)

I lost my best friend yesterday at about 2340 hours and today, in the morning, buried him at Sembawang, near a mosque and the sea. I was carrying him in my arms when he went. I will miss him, his tricks, everything bout him. He has been sick for about 3 days, not eaten for 3 days, and he keep vomitting. Couldn't send him to the vet though, cos my mum does not have enough money yet (the other time, he was sick, it cost us bout 300 bucks). He was suffering from the same illness - bladder stones. I think it's better now cos he's put out of his pain cos we don't know when my mum's cheque will arrive. He's been like the kid brother that I've always wanted (have a younger brother but he's a jerk).

Was kinda pissed off today cos I just wanted to finish the paper and go home, but the stupid class keep making jokes. I think SH and SP realised that I was in a foul mood cos I make a comment (not to them though) and they kinda turned and looked at me... Aargh!!! Life kinda sucks right now...

Totally, totally pissed off!!!

Had a really crappy day today. I really hate it when someone talks about a topic that concerns me, in front of me in other language that I don't understand. If they have a problem with me, they can just tell me straight to my face, instead of bitching bout it, in front of me and in chinese!!! Ha, they thought that I don't understand, but baby, after hanging out with Chinese frens for so many years, don't think that I don't know what you guys are talking about!

I know that I like to disturb pple but I've been like that since I was a kid. Anyway, you can't take life too seriously cos life is short. You've got to live your life to the fullest, baby! Different people have their own ways of enjoying life. I like to disturb people and you like to read comics.
By the way, I wasn't even making noise. So, what's your problem?!!! Don't put the blame on me when it's not my fault! I especially hate it when people raise their voice at me when I didn't even irritate them. And I was disturbing Karen and WH, and not you! So, mind your own damn business cos I wasn't disturbing you... It's not my fault that you can't concentrate. I don't know what's wrong with you but you kinda have this fits everytime the ICA is nearing. You really pisses me off and you make it worst when you raised your voice and ask if I wanna go home. If not , you're going home... Well, you know what? I don't care cos this is the last straw. I won't let anybody put me down or raise their voice at me for no fucking reasons!!! I won't talk to you until... I don't know... maybe, never again!!!

So Confused

Hey, hey, hey! I know it's been awhile dat I last updated... Well here I am...
I'm totally confused to who are my real friends... I know I've been hanging with this 7 people from yr 1 but from what I know that gang is breaking up... It started from me drifting off, and now i heard that Pinky (small) & the Brain (big) is also drifting away, with Brain telling me that the other 5 are hypocrites...
I also kinda find myself becoming more closer with these two and somehow I kinda feel bad dat I don't talk much to the friends dat have been helping me to become a better a person after I've stopped hanging with those 7 pple... This kinda shucks cos i really enjoy hanging with them but sometimes I just don't understand what they're saying...
And everyone in my class are changing. Some becoming from bad to worse, and some, totally gone case.
I didn't go to class today cos I was still pissed off over what happened yesterday... As you know HT was in my group for Jukka's assignment and she's kinda pissed off dat Johnathan kinda thought he's finished his job. The thing dat really pisses me off was dat she complained to Angeline but not to me, the designated team leader. We were all in atrain and I was right in front of her, but she didn't want to complain to me... the thing was I kinda understand a bit so I just stand near the door and looked away... When we were heading to Yew tee, I asked Angeline and she told me dat HT was kinda saying dat Hasreen is not doing anything and why I don't do this, do that... Fuck man! I was there, wasn't I? She could have just said it to my face! And here I am, thinking that she's not that at all... Ha ha. Now my opinion won't change! HT, you are a fucking bitch!!!!
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