The Cruise

Hmmm... I don't know if I should go for the cruise... First, I'm not sure if my parents can pay for it... Second, I could be ignored with nobody to talk to... Third, I'm just not sure if I will have a great time... *sigh*

I don't really know... I'm feeling rather depressed and I realised that I've been thinking that it will be great to be dead early than suffer all those shit...

I can't say what I feel to the pple concerned cos it could make matter worst... I told the gang that I just need a change of environment but, that's not really true...

Maybe it's not their fault, but mine... I don't know... I think that they would prefer me not sitting with them rather than sitting with them. There was one time last week, when I sat with them during lunch, (after, I don't know, a few weeks of not sitting with them?), they kinda gave me the feeling that I'm not welcome anymore...

Ha ha... I guess I should just ignore them and study, study, study... After that, maybe, try to lose contact with them... It's actually not the whole gang, but only some of them... Yeah, maybe some of them will read this and...