A poem (if I can call it that)

Here's a poem that I've created in like 15 mins...

Cheaters, cheaters
Copying other people papers
Just so that they can pass
Without a care for other people

With their integrity gone
And their pride disintegrating
They copied
Like nobody's business

I was tempted once
I was tempted twice
I copied once
But not anymore

So what should we do?
They asked
Should we tell the lecturers
Or should we just not care

That's the world today
Everywhere there are paper chasers
Just so
They can boast

People want to make big money
(Who wouldn't?)
Without giving a damn
To what they do to others

Here's a variation, written by Karen...

Cheaters, cheaters
Copying in the tests
To pass their papers
And be one of the best

With their integrity gone
And their pride disintegrating
Conscience seems none
As results is everything

I was tempted once
I was tempted twice
Finally... I cheat
My heart miss a beat
Remorse comes fast...
It will be the last

Justice we must hold
but, what can we do
Should the lecturers be told?
No, we don't think so

That's the world today
Certificate holders have the say
Chasing positions above coast
Just so, they can boast.

You know, I've never expected Karen to be someone who can write a poem until she told me she took Literature in secondary school...

No Clouds

Yeah!!! 33 more days to Song for Lovers!!!!

Well, today, I'm gonna write bout these two bitches in my class. I don't know what's wrong with them but they are treating me, as if as I pissed them off. For all that I know, I did nothing to Pinky but she just snapped at me yesterday. For Brain, ha, she's a bitch. Last Thursday, her group's presentation, she and another idiotic moron, YX, 'shot' me down in front of the whole class. It's not as if as they're right! I told them it's not because of the tired mate but the management, and they shot back that even though the Safe Manning Cert stated that there should two person keeping watch, it doesn't mean that two people have to keep watch at the same time. Hmm... Hello!!! I was attached to the manning dept of MPA, so I should know better. That Brain too was attached to the same dept and she should know, but, noooo!!! She tried to be sarcastic to me even. That's what they said - they don't know their stuff, so, that's why they tried to bullshit their way out! Ha ha... Your problem, not my problem...

Anyway, back to these two, Pinky and the Brain (hopefully you guys know whom I'm tak=lking about). I don't know what's your problem, but if you guys don't wanna talk to me, so be it then! I don't give a damn anymore and I'm totally tired of the two of you's attitude. Moreover, you guys are totally immature and totally lame!

Wow! That kinda remind me of a Liberty X song... It's titled No Clouds and it's a great song. Totally describing what I'm feeling right now... Ha ha... Like Jessica of Liberty X told me, "Keep your chin up and don't let anyone get you down!" Ha ha... I'm like the luckiest person in the world rite now!!! Well, here's the lyrics to No Clouds, which was written by 4 of them - Kevin, Jessica, Kelli and Tony, with another songwriter...

No Clouds – Liberty X
[Kelli] Oooh,
Woke up this morning, opened up my curtains
What do I see but a lovely day
Sun shining down, no sign of the clouds
Don't wanna go to work, cos I got to play
Call all my peeps and head for the beach
Do a whole lot of nothing all day long
I don't care about no 9 to 5
Right here's where I belong

[Tony] And I gotta a funny feeling that
Things are gonna go my way, oh oh oh

[Chorus] Ain't gonna be no clouds
Hanging over my head no more
All I can see is sunshine
There's one thing I know for sure that
No way I'm holding onto yesterday no more
Living for today I don't care 'bout tomorrow

[Jessica] There was a time when you would always would deny
You were sly you were hiding things from me
Believing every lie, never listened to my own mind
I've opened my eyes, now I really see
Without you here the way is clear
Live my life the way I wanna be
All that matters is right here, right now
My life's ahead of me

[Kevin] Now I ain't gonna worry about the time
This day is mine, Whoa whoa whoa

[Chorus] Ain't gonna be no clouds
Hanging over my head no more
All I can see is sunshine
There's one thing I know for sure that
No way I'm holding onto yesterday no more
Living for today I don't care 'bout tomorrow

Ain't gonna be no clouds
Hanging over my head no more (be no clouds)
All I can see is sunshine
There's one thing I know for sure that
No way I'm holding onto yesterday no more (all I see is sunshine)
Living for today I don't care 'bout tomorrow

[Rap]
[Jessica]Ain't gonna be no clouds
I got myself a positive mentality
I'm Miss Congeniality
Thinking about the things that I'd like to do
When you were in my life, I never got the chance to do
It was hard for me to see I only needed me
Your negativity made me think
That I couldn’t be what I wanted to be
But now that I'm freeI realised that my life is mine
This is my own time

[Kevin] Don't care…

[Chorus] Ain't gonna be no clouds
Hanging over my head no more (gonna be no clouds)
All I can see is sunshine
There's one thing I know for sure that (the way I'm holding on)
No way I'm holding onto yesterday no more
Living for today I don't care 'bout tomorrow (never no more)

Ain't gonna be no clouds(no clouds)
Hanging over my head no more (no clouds)
All I can see is sunshine
There's one thing I know for sure that (I know for sure)
No way I'm holding onto yesterday no more (I'm holding onto yesterday)
Living for today I don't care 'bout tomorrow (don't care)

Ain't gonna be no clouds
Hanging over my head no more (no more)
All I can see is sunshine
There's one thing I know for sure that (ain’t gonna be no clouds)
No way I'm holding onto yesterday no more (no more)
Living for today I don't care 'bout tomorrow

Greed

Well, like I said in my previous post... Here's the lyrics...

Greed - Liberty X
How much do you really want?
If you had it would it really solve your problems?
Do you realise the pain it causes
Struggling for something you may never get
How much would you sacrifice if I told you I could change your life?
You don't have to take on my advice
Don't do something that you might regret
How much do you really need?
Is it justified or is it greed?
If you satisfy your vanity
If you get to where you think you wanna go
How much is it gonna take?
Will you see it through or will you break?
Cos in the end what will you have to show?

Life can be lonely
When all you have are your possessions
Greed becomes your main obsession
Just take it slowly
If what you want ain't what you need
You've become a victim of your greed

How much do you really feel?
Can you recognise when something's real?
Do you live your life by fake ideals?
Do you think that one day you will get the chance?
What happens if you don't achieve
Will it be enough if you believe
You can just rely on destiny
Don't you know your fate is in your hands
How much is enough for you?
When you reach the top what will you do?
Will you look around for something new?
Without the destination will you carry on?
Will you try day after day
Pretend you don't hear what they say?
What would you do if all your pride was gone?

Life can be lonely
When all you have are your possessions
Greed becomes your main obsession
Just take it slowly
If what you want ain't what you need
You've become a victim of your greed

Cos material possessions ain't the world (Ain't the world)
Nobody ever bought you happiness with diamonds or pearls (Diamonds or pearls)
You've gotta look at things for what they really are (What they really are)
Or you'll find yourself wanting more
Going way too far

Life can be lonely
When all you have are your possessions
Greed becomes your main obsession
Just take it slowly
If what you want ain't what you need
You've become a victim of your greed

Life can be lonely
Just take it slowly
If what you want ain't what you need
You've become a victim of your greed

Life can be lonely
When all you have are your possessions
Greed becomes your main obsession
Just take it slowly
If what you want ain't what you need
You've become a victim of your greed

Life can be lonely
Just take it slowly...

It's a really great song and quite inspiring too...

Ha ha... It's now 37 more days to Song For Lovers, their new single...

Me, Myself & I

I think, today, I will talk about myself cos I'm sick and tired of people making me out to be someone whom I'm really not. I can be quite a schizophrenic at times. One moment, sad, another, happy, and another moment, pissed off. Ha ha... That's just so me... I'm not really like other people. I can be quite a weirdo and a bit eccentric at times. Also, I'm a bit of a short fuse and I get mad easily. Ha, maybe it's because of my starsign - Gemini...

(Listening and singing along to a Liberty X song - Greed)
Life can be lonely
When all you have are your possesions
Greed become your main obsessions
Just take it slowly
If what you want ain't what you need
You've become a victim of your greed

This song, basically, is about...hmm...most Singaporeans. Even though some of their actions doesn't look like they are greedy, it does so! Maybe, for my next post, I will post the lyrics to the song and you guys can see that, what the song is describing, can be be seen in our class.

People are copying cos they wanted to pass. Isn't that kind of a greed? Their pride and integrity gone, copying other peeps paper just so that they can pass. I know that they wanna pass, c'mon, who wouldn't want to pass... But they don't have to do that! Hmm...I was kinda tempted to copy too, last year, but my integrity say no, so, I didn't!!! Ha ha... I don't care anymore if I pass or fail as long as I didn't copy. We are also not passing or failing on an even playing field, so, what's the use? Really, man!!! The song Greed really describe those peeps who copied and also most Singaporeans!!! Always driven by their greed without giving a fuck to the peeps around 'em!!!

If you wanna comment on this topic, sure, do so, but read my next topic and I'm sure that some of you will totally agree with me...

A Message from my fave member from my fave band

Here's what Jessica from Liberty X posted, replying to my msg that I posted on the Liberty X's forum...

Jessica Liberty XGuest
Posted: Tue Aug 02, 2005 9:28 pm Post subject: Hey!

Kevin and I both remember you! The best address to send anything to is Hyperactive Music Management, 41 Regatta Point, 38 Kew Bridge Road, London TW8 0EB. Please try to keep your chin up and don't let anyone get you down! Hopefully one day we will be back in Singapore so look out for us! Lots of love xxx

Of course, I'm damn happy... It's great that your fave band reply to your message, so, that's why I really love Liberty X!!!
She really lift my spirit, after me being pissed off with the class...

In The Loving Memory of Panky (?-2005)

I lost my best friend yesterday at about 2340 hours and today, in the morning, buried him at Sembawang, near a mosque and the sea. I was carrying him in my arms when he went. I will miss him, his tricks, everything bout him. He has been sick for about 3 days, not eaten for 3 days, and he keep vomitting. Couldn't send him to the vet though, cos my mum does not have enough money yet (the other time, he was sick, it cost us bout 300 bucks). He was suffering from the same illness - bladder stones. I think it's better now cos he's put out of his pain cos we don't know when my mum's cheque will arrive. He's been like the kid brother that I've always wanted (have a younger brother but he's a jerk).

Was kinda pissed off today cos I just wanted to finish the paper and go home, but the stupid class keep making jokes. I think SH and SP realised that I was in a foul mood cos I make a comment (not to them though) and they kinda turned and looked at me... Aargh!!! Life kinda sucks right now...

Totally, totally pissed off!!!

Had a really crappy day today. I really hate it when someone talks about a topic that concerns me, in front of me in other language that I don't understand. If they have a problem with me, they can just tell me straight to my face, instead of bitching bout it, in front of me and in chinese!!! Ha, they thought that I don't understand, but baby, after hanging out with Chinese frens for so many years, don't think that I don't know what you guys are talking about!

I know that I like to disturb pple but I've been like that since I was a kid. Anyway, you can't take life too seriously cos life is short. You've got to live your life to the fullest, baby! Different people have their own ways of enjoying life. I like to disturb people and you like to read comics.
By the way, I wasn't even making noise. So, what's your problem?!!! Don't put the blame on me when it's not my fault! I especially hate it when people raise their voice at me when I didn't even irritate them. And I was disturbing Karen and WH, and not you! So, mind your own damn business cos I wasn't disturbing you... It's not my fault that you can't concentrate. I don't know what's wrong with you but you kinda have this fits everytime the ICA is nearing. You really pisses me off and you make it worst when you raised your voice and ask if I wanna go home. If not , you're going home... Well, you know what? I don't care cos this is the last straw. I won't let anybody put me down or raise their voice at me for no fucking reasons!!! I won't talk to you until... I don't know... maybe, never again!!!

So Confused

Hey, hey, hey! I know it's been awhile dat I last updated... Well here I am...
I'm totally confused to who are my real friends... I know I've been hanging with this 7 people from yr 1 but from what I know that gang is breaking up... It started from me drifting off, and now i heard that Pinky (small) & the Brain (big) is also drifting away, with Brain telling me that the other 5 are hypocrites...
I also kinda find myself becoming more closer with these two and somehow I kinda feel bad dat I don't talk much to the friends dat have been helping me to become a better a person after I've stopped hanging with those 7 pple... This kinda shucks cos i really enjoy hanging with them but sometimes I just don't understand what they're saying...
And everyone in my class are changing. Some becoming from bad to worse, and some, totally gone case.
I didn't go to class today cos I was still pissed off over what happened yesterday... As you know HT was in my group for Jukka's assignment and she's kinda pissed off dat Johnathan kinda thought he's finished his job. The thing dat really pisses me off was dat she complained to Angeline but not to me, the designated team leader. We were all in atrain and I was right in front of her, but she didn't want to complain to me... the thing was I kinda understand a bit so I just stand near the door and looked away... When we were heading to Yew tee, I asked Angeline and she told me dat HT was kinda saying dat Hasreen is not doing anything and why I don't do this, do that... Fuck man! I was there, wasn't I? She could have just said it to my face! And here I am, thinking that she's not that at all... Ha ha. Now my opinion won't change! HT, you are a fucking bitch!!!!
Ha ha...

My Birthday!

Ha,ha! My birthday just passed and I'm 19... What really made my birthday even better was logging on to the Liberty X forum and seeing my fave Liberty x posting... She even posted an update for the fans when I was in the forum... Yeah! Reading her post makes my day (which is really crappy cos I have not slept for two days now) better! Yeah, baby! Can't wait for their new single!

Oh, my birthday! Just spend it at home, not being able to sleep and playing the playstation, listening to my fave band... Aww, shucks! Skool starts this Monday! Be back with a new haircut too. Can't wait to see everybody (Yeah, right! As if!)... Anyway, peace out peeps!

*singing* Never let them get you down
You've got to turn around and
Find your own way to it
You know it’s up to you
To pull yourself through
All the troubles, it's a struggle
But be strong and you'll do it

Me birthday!!!

Aww sux.... Me birthday is coming and ha ha, nobody can sabotage me... I'm sure no one remembers me birthday also... Oh man... 1 more wk to skool re-open...

Another inspirng song by Liberty X!

Here's a song by my most favourite band in the world... It's a rather inspiring song which inspired me to don't give a damn bout what others have to say about me and prove everyone wrong!

Never Give Up – Liberty X Ooh, oh
Oh yeah, oh yeah

[Jessica] We were looking round
Waiting for the right time
Everybody saying
‘Careful what you do,
You've got everything to prove’,

[Michelle] They were saying
‘You gotta do it now cos if you don't,
You know you're gonna fade away
You gotta listen to what we say
Gotta realise you don't know the game like I do’

[All] We drew the line (we drew the line)
Used our own minds (used our own minds)
Chose not to take their advice
We didn't know (oh whoa),
Which way to go (oh whoa)
So we just followed the signs

[All] Never let them get you down
You've got to turn around and
Find your own way to it
You know it’s up to you
To pull yourself through
All the troubles, it's a struggle
But be strong and you'll do it

[All] Never let them get you down
You've got to turn around and
Find your own way to it
You know it’s up to you
To pull yourself through
All the troubles, it's a struggle
But be strong and you'll do it

All my life, I feel as if people are looking down on me... When I got my O levels results, some of my so-called mates were surprised that I even passed and get into a poly... Ha, ha... Lesson learnt here people - Don't ever try to look down on me cos I will just prove you wrong!

I'm really grateful cos I've a best friend whom is still in contact with me, and I'm also grateful that I have such wonderful friends in poly. If not for them, I don't think I can even study hard for me exams... It turns out that I stop mixing with the old friends, just in time for studying... Yeah, thanks to Annie, Angeline, Kang Yan, Wan Hua, Sharon, Bernard and Siok Huang, I've passed my exams... Thanks people... I would also thanks my "old friends" such as Schenelle, Tabitha, Sarah, Saliha and Liza for being true friends - I still mix out with you guys still, except for sometimes, when a certain somebody is with you guys...

Break

Well, as many of you know, we are having a break... So, maybe, no post for these two months, but don't be surprise if you see me posting...


Peace out!!!!!!!



Liberty X Rules!!!!!!!!!!

Blah, blah, blah...

In My Life

This is a song by a Finnish band, The Rasmus, which to me, is kinda meaningful...

In My Life - The Rasmus
Feel the heat below my feet
I have to go no time to sleep
Can't believe the things you say
Turn my head and walk away
You make me sick you make me nervous

Times are gone when you would say
This is the one and seize the day
Times are gone for honesty
"My victory is your defeat"
Oh can't you see you've been mistaken

[Chorus] In my life I decide and it turns me on
How I am, how I live, who I love
In my way, I feel strong
And it turns me on
In my life, I decide, I decide

All you do, you can't deny it
It's waste of time, waste of life
Can I suggest that you invest in something more than hopelessness
Before you know, the ride is over

[Chorus] In my life I decide and it turns me on
How I am, how I live, who I love
In my way, I feel strong
And it turns me on
In my life, I decide, I decide

It's up to you if you give it up
It's up to you if you won't stop
It's up to you if you give it up
It's up to you if you won't stop

It's up to you if you give it up, give it up
It's up to you if you won't stop
It's up to you if you give it up, give it up
It's up to you, it's up to you...

The record shows that you're dead but you're still living
Every time you have died you have been given
Another chance to fix up your bad attitude
And make a move, it's up to you

It's up to you if you give it up, give it up
It's up to you if you give it up, give it up
It's up to you if you give it up, give it up
It's up to you, it's up to you

Give it up, give it up
Give it up, give it up
Give it up, give it up

Wow...There, there. The song is like...so powerful... Ha ha...
The chorus is very damn meaningful... Yeah!!! Can't you all feel the power?! I can...

Well, people, I just remember to tell all the readers this - What you read here, stays here... Don't go about telling others what I've wrote...

Freedom of speech, people... As long as it's not defamation or slander, the law said it's ok. So, it's okay for me to bullshit cos I'm just an ass... Ha ha...

Peace out!

Story of My Life

This is a song by my fave band, Liberty X, from their second album, "Being Somebody", which I can totally relate to...

Sometimes I feel like I wrote the book of loneliness
And every chapter ends in tears
Sometimes I fear I've had my share of happiness
It's gotta last me all my years

And looking in your eyes it makes me wonder
Do I have a chance again?
Now suddenly I feel I'm starting over
Like it's time to turn the page

It's the story of my life
Can you help me write
The words I need to say
In a better way
Can you help me see
The person I could be
Read between the lines
Can you help me write
The story of my life?

Do you ever feel like your destiny is written for you?
And you only play the part?
Cos I believed in fate the moment that I saw you
Your name was written on my heart

And looking in your eyes I feel a sense of wonder
I know I have a chance again
Now suddenly I feel I'm starting over
It's time to turn the page

It's the story of my life
Can you help me write
The words I need to say
In a better way
Can you help me see
The person I could be
Read between the lines
Can you help me write
The story of my life?

So baby won't you be my inspiration
Through the shadows and the light?
Together we can write our dedication in the story of our lives
Story of our lives

Help me write the story of my life
Help me write the story of my life
Help me write the story of my life
Help me write the story of my life

It's the story of my life
Can you help me write
The words I need to say
In a better way
Can you help me see
The person I could be
Read between the lines
Can you help me write
The story of my life?
It's the story of my life
Can you help me write
The words I need to say
In a better way
Can you help me see
The person I could be
Read between the lines
Can you help me write
The story of my life?

Ha ha... I can totally feel the lyrics, man... That's the power of music. So, to all the people out there, who's been asking why I'm so crazy bout Liberty X...well, all I can said is that they gave me the courage to be who I wanna be... In the past, I can be said of as a failure but they gave me this inspiration to get over all those shit and be a somebody, instead of being someone else's clone... Ha ha... There I said it... Look around you... Most likely, you will see lots of 'clones' (I'm not bullshitting you)...

Well, peace out...

Be original!!!

The Cruise

Hmmm... I don't know if I should go for the cruise... First, I'm not sure if my parents can pay for it... Second, I could be ignored with nobody to talk to... Third, I'm just not sure if I will have a great time... *sigh*

I don't really know... I'm feeling rather depressed and I realised that I've been thinking that it will be great to be dead early than suffer all those shit...

I can't say what I feel to the pple concerned cos it could make matter worst... I told the gang that I just need a change of environment but, that's not really true...

Maybe it's not their fault, but mine... I don't know... I think that they would prefer me not sitting with them rather than sitting with them. There was one time last week, when I sat with them during lunch, (after, I don't know, a few weeks of not sitting with them?), they kinda gave me the feeling that I'm not welcome anymore...

Ha ha... I guess I should just ignore them and study, study, study... After that, maybe, try to lose contact with them... It's actually not the whole gang, but only some of them... Yeah, maybe some of them will read this and...

Name change

Ha ha... I just change the title of my blog cos i want pple to know that i'm still very much fascinated with Liberty X... I don't care wat others wanna said but I do really like Liberty X...

Well, peace out, peeps!!!

Ha ha

I kinda feel like I'm a bit of a nutter... Somedays, I could be rather mad, somedays, pissed off, some days sad... Well, some sort of a schizo ( i forgotten the correct spelling)...

Well, what do we have here... A poem! Yeah!!!

Exams, exams, exams...
They're driving pple mad
They're making my mates stressed up
But not me...
Cos life's short
Gotta enjoy life before it's taken away from you

I don't know what I've just written but a friend of mine asked me to crack my artistic side, so... i don't know how to draw but only know how to bullshit... Ha ha...

Man, oh man... pple should just learn to calm down...
Gotta go... Got my stupid 'interview' to go for and stats ica coming... Yeah! Time for my bullshitting again...

Sick & Tired

I'm kinda sick of life and tired of most of the people around me... I don't know, but since coming back from my attachment, I kinda like hate everybody...

I don't hang around with my old gang cos I kinda feel like they don't like me hanging around with them anymore...

I don't know, man... I just feel like the whole world is against me and hated me... Maybe, I still can't get over the death of my late grandma... I know it's been like 6 years but still...

Well, peace out...

A Poem!!!

This poem was written during my Financial Management lesson and I was in a rather bad mood...
Forgive me if it hurts anyone but there's a freedom in speech...

What is the teenage years?
It's only full of bitching and lies
And people trying to act cool
But end up looking like a fool

Teenagers
Wearing anti-wrinkle cream before they even ages
Cos they're too stressed up
As life's just fucked-up

Teachers and lecturers
Trying to get the students' attention
But they're just fakers
Only interested in getting a promotion

What is on a teen's mind?
Being popular and a teacher's pet
Others, they don't mind
Don't even know where to stop at


For the moment, that's all I can think of... So, if anybody wants to edit it or add anything to it, feel free to do so...