Note to all MRT commuters

• The railings in the trains are for people to hold on to, not for you idiots to lean on. If you idiots were to lean on the rails, what am I going to hold on to when I lose my balance? Hold on to you motherfucking idiots?!
• When you see that the train is already packed, do not force yourself in cos those who are already packed in the train have no more place to squeeze into
• When the train stops at a station, those of you who are standing in front of the door, please get out for a while and let those who are alighting to get out. Don't just fucking stand there like a big boulder! What do you expect us to? Move around you and then miss our stop cos we have to manoeuvre our way out?!
• If you are standing in the train and it's really packed, please don't move your head back and forth, unless you want to get a headbutt from the people standing behind you.
• Do not read your newspaper when it's bloody full. The amount of space that you take for your newspaper is enough for a person to squeeze into.
• Keep left on the escalator. Can't you guys bloody read?! Even those who can't read knows that you have to keep to the left cos it's in bloody pictures.
• Please move to the middle of the carriage/train and don't expect others to move in just so you can stand there like a prince/princess.
• If your ears are plugged, please be very observant when the train hails to a stop at each station. It's pointless to say, "Excuse me", if you can't hear a shit. If you want to get a shoulder barge, continue blocking the way, lost in your own world.
• While waiting for the train's door to open, don't suddenly squeeze your way infront of the people who's getting into the train.
• While waiting to get into the train, please clear a passage for those who are alighting if you don't want to get shoulder barged by those who are alighting
• If you are lucky enough to get a sit on the train, please give up your seat when you see an old fogey or a pregnant lady standing in front of you or within your eyesight. Don't pretend to sleep or they're invisible. I really can't stand it when I see really old person having to stand in a packed train and got squeezed while some younger, fit idiots are sitting down, looking at others or catching some "eye shut" time.
• Those of you with big arses (or those who thinks that they have big arses), please stop shoving your arse around.

That's all for now... More observations will be posted later. Adios, suckas!!!!

Damn, I just fucking realise something... I can write poems! Was going through some of my older posts, and I can't believe some of the shit that I wrote. Hmm, maybe, now since I have lots of time, I can start writing poems again, but wait, it has to wait. I want to complete my games first and finished all the DVDS that I recently acquired, especially my Criminal Minds and CSI Miami series, and oh, not forgetting Shark and Gossip Girl... At least, there's some stuffs to take my mind off the situation right now.............

Ah, damn! Have to wait until September for the new seasons of GG, CM and CSI Miami. And fuck the fact that Shark won't be coming back. Fuck CBS! Shark's a fucking great show, and they cancelled it?! Fuck them! They had better not cancel CM and CSI Miami! Oh well, off I go to watch the last episode of Season 3 of CM, then back to playing on the PS2, trying to get my mind of, of the fact that my mum's in a coma. It's my way of releasing some steam. My dad's way is smoking more ciggies, my sis would be watching some Korean videos on the net, and my bro's would be surfing the net or playing on his PSP. I really wish that she'll wake up soon.............

My mum's in coma...

My mum's in the hospital right now after my dad called the ambulance on Wednesday morning. To be honest, I had actually wanted to send her on Monday afternoon, after finding her on the floor, beside her bed, not knowing where she was and not answering when me and my dad asked her why she was on the floor. Luckily on that day, it was a public holiday cos I won't be able to lift her up on my own... My sis had to work overtime, and my bro was working part-time. It's like my mum's mind was somewhere else. She keep staring into spaces, and when my dad asked her why she was on the floor, she would answer, "huh?" and not looking at my dad. Then, she was back to her normal self after a couple of hours, after my aunt came and see her. She was ok until the next morning.

I was playing the games that my aunt had just bought for me, and no, I hadn't sleep yet at that time, when my bro came into my room and called me. Luckily, my dad has to work the afternoon shift, cos me and my bro won't know what to do if was only the 2 of us, so my dad took an emergency leave on that day. My mum was staring into blank spaces and rambling some nonsense. It went for a while until she fall asleep, I think. Then, when she woke up, she start staring into spaces again. It went on until around 4 or 5 in the afternoon after my dad asked me to bath her using the water that my aunt had said some prayers over. She managed to eat and took her medicines, and she went to sleep around 10. Then, around 6 in the morning, my dad came into my room and told me that he tried waking her up, but she won't wake up, and she had soiled herself. So, I woke my sis up and told my dad that we had to send her to the hospital. So, me and my sis cleaned her up, and still, my mum didn't wake up. After that, my sis called the ambulance, and when they came, they checked my mum's blood sugar and found it to be normal, cos they thought that she had fainted because of low blood sugar.

So, my sis followed the ambulance while my dad had to go to the hospital on his motorbike cos there ain't enough space for him. They admitted her to a normal ward and then, they changed her to the ICU ward after the tests results came back. They told my dad and my sis that she has a minor stroke and a slight brain damage. And the nurse of the ambulance who normally send my mum to her appointments (cos my mum still haven't got her prosthetic leg yet and I'm not strong enough to carry her down the stairs on my own), wanted to scream at me (thank God, I wasn't there cos I might smash her face. I nearly did the other time, but I managed to calm myself) cos she thought that my mum wasn't taking her meds and not eating her food. The fucking thing was she took all her medicines on time, and she did eat, not much (I did asked her to eat more, but she said that she couldn't eat much), but she still eat. She thought that I wasn't taking care of my mum. Oh well, what does she knows?

So now, she's still in coma and the docs are still doing some tests on her. My sis told me that they had put more tubes in, yesterday. Hopefully, by my birthday next week, she's waken up. What I had wanted for my birthday this year was for to be able to walk, not this!

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I was fucking right!

Yeah, I was right! Things do happen for a reason... Yesterday, when I was going home, after visiting my mum, I met my best friend, whom I've lost touch with for some time. I was supposed to go home at around 7 plus since my dad has already arrived, but I got out of the hospital at around 8, just after the rain had stopped. It's not that I couldn't go home much earlier, had my mum's foldable umbrella in my bag, but I kinda find it a chore to carry an umbrella, out in the rain. I would rather just walk in the rain and get wet (like the other time - didn't know it was going to rain that heavily), than to use an umbrella. So, took the bus home, even though I could take the train - I just don't like the train cos...............(for me to know for you to find out), even though I could carry out my hobby, which was people-watching. You know, one of my former lecturers was right. You sure can learn a lot just by observing other people, and the great place to do that is in the train. And I would rather take the bus cos I like looking out of the window and see the bloody scenery (might soon change since the government are cutting down all these forest, trees so as to accommodate its growing population - it's getting too crowded here!). But my fave mode of transportation is the motorbike. Wanted to take a motorbike licence, but both my parents was against that idea. They would rather see me go for a driving lessons and apply for a car licence. A car is good but I would rather ride a bike down the expressway cos I can zig zag in and out from this lane to that lane, to another...

So, I reached the bus interchange and was walking home when I saw someone putting his arm out in front of me. I looked up and there's my best friend. So, we talked for some time and exchanged numbers. I told him that I was gonna ask his cousin about him, but then decided not to cos I wasn't sure if he knows where he was. So, yeah it kinda make my day cos I've finally managed to find my best friend just because it was raining and I was bloody lazy to use the fucking umbrella. Haha, now I have all my best mates' contact numbers! See, shit do happens for a reason. If my mum wasn't hospitalised, and I didn't have to go and visit her, I wouldn't have met my mate. See, there's always the positive from the negative.


Later...

Shit happens for a reason...

Yeah, shit does happens for a reason. I've finally figured out why I keep getting rejected for all the job interviews that I went for. Yup, I'm still jobless. So, why? Maybe, it was 'written in the stars' that I'm gonna have to look after my mum. That almost half of my mum's left leg's gonna get amputated. That my brother and sister are gonna be fucking useless... and so on...

Everytime, when I get that 'reject' letter, I'll be kinda down cos the jobs that I've applied for are those jobs that I really want and interested in. I don't give a fuck about the pay, to me, it's the interest that counts. It's a bonus if the pay's quite high.

Oh wait! One of the job interviews that I went for, I did blow it off on purpose cos it's a shitty job, shitty environment (a call centre in Ubi)... So, went in for the job interview, 3 at a time, not 1 (WTF!), and the 2 interviewers asked us 2 questions - Why do you want to work at a call centre and what's your previous job experience? I gave quite a reasonable answer which was "Cos I love challenges" and they asked, "Why do you think working at a call centre can be challenging?" My answer, "Cos you have to think on your feet and give a straightforward answer when a customer called. And you have to be patient enough to deal with difficult customer." How did I blew it? Well, in the job appln form, I put down my expected salary as $1500, when I've already know that the pay's lower than that. Why did I apply for the job? Didn't want to but some job agent from this company, that I signed up to, called me and persuade me to go for the interview. That's why. Haha, me in a call centre environment? Won't be doing my job, but will be sleeping on the job cos it's a motherfucking boring job!

The other jobs that I've applied for are government jobs and shift work, all except 1 are uniformed jobs. I would much rather apply for a shift work than a 9-5 job/office job cos to me, the latter would be such a chore and kinda like Groundhog Day, if you get what I mean. When you got to work everyday, you'll take the same train, see the same faces on the same train/bus, get in the same crowd, etc... If you were to work shifts, you get to see the same faces on the train for two day, another set of same faces for the other 2 days and your family and friends for the other, other 2 days. And when you go back home, on certain days, you don't get caught in the rush hour. I know some peole might think that it's a dumb reason for applying for a shift work, but that is 1 reason why I want to apply for a shift job. The other reason was on my off days, I can go back to the place that I was attached at during poly and visit all of them.

1 reason why I would apply for a uniformed job is because I don't have to spend hundreds of dollars to buy a totally new set of wardrobe cos I have to wear a uniform to work! I can spend the money on DVDs, CDs, helping my parents to pay the bills and a whole lot of other stuffs.

I've made up my mind. Gonna apply to work at Certis Cisco like my dad. Besides, at the last job interview that I went for, 3 different interviewers asked my why didn't I just work with my dad, he can recommend me, blah blah blah... It was with Aetos, they offered almost the same services as Certis. I was applying for Airport Security Screening Officer (SSO), when my credential enabled me to apply for Auxillary Police Officer (APO). I applied for the SSO position cos I'll be working at the airport, I don't why but I love the airport's environment, even though the pay's much lower than the APO's, only about 2oo bucks lower. The 1st interviewer, an APO, tried to convince me to apply for the APO position cos my credentials are kinda too high for the SSO but fucking suitable for the APO, and I told her straight up that I wanted the SSO job. And she asked me why and I gave a bloody answer that I could cough up that moment which was I don't like handling guns. C'mon, then why the bloody hell did I apply for another job which requires me to handle guns? Haha, my heart was set on that job, that I cough up lots of other reason on why I didn't why to apply for that job. She gave up, another guy came in to "interview" me when in fact, he was trying to convince me to apply for the APO position. He was gonna lose his cool so he gave up, another guy came in. And he ask me why didn't I ask my dad to recommend me to Cisco. My answer? Cos I wanted to work as an SSO. And he too, tried to convince me to apply for APO, and I answered back, "Like you said, "If I wanted to apply for the APO position, why didn't I just asked my dad to recommend me for the job?" and besides my dad told me that if I wanted to apply for that position, he can recommend me." And that was enough to shut him up and end the interview. Told my aunt about it and she said that I was dumb not to follow what they said. I do believe in what I told them and I stand by my decision.

So, why am I applying for the APO position with Cisco? I was actually interested to join Cisco since I was in secondary school but at that time, my dad and mum told me that my dad don't want any of his kids to work there, but now, he has a change of heart... Can't apply for it right now though cos I have to wait for my mum to finished her rehabilitation at AMK hospital, and after she's discharged, I have to wait till she's strong enough. Might be after Chinese New Year, that's what my dad said. My mum's been in hospital since September, since 19th Sep. Was discharged from TTSH on 2nd October, they only cut off half of her left foot, but was re-admitted bout 3 days later due to an infection to the foot. That's when they have to amputated that much, two days before Hari Raya. So, yeah, my family didn't celebrate Hari Raya this year. She might be discharged at the end of next month... Hmm, hospitalised for almost 4 months. That's a record I think, for any of my family members. I don't think my late grandma was hospitalised for that long...

But there's 1 positive thing that comes out of this - I've learnt how to cook!!!

I know, I know... I've not been updating my blog regularly even though I have all this thoughts in my head. And I want to share the thoughts here, but I was afraid of getting arrested, my house getting raided or getting send to the shrink. Cos the thoughts that goes on in my head are rather dark. I don't know why I've been thinking the way that I've been thinking, but some of the thoughts that goes on in my head are quite funny and nice. Hmmm... Maybe, I should visit a shrink lest I lose my self-control and carry out all things that I've been thinking. It happened before in my primary school where I stabbed my classmate in his arm, with a, get this, a just sharpened pencil. Punishment? To stand outside the class for a whole period. I've gotten into lots of trouble in my primary and secondary schools for carrying out the shit that I was thinking.

I've gotten into trouble for taking revenge on my juniors by locking them in this shipping container that has been turned into a place where the kids could hang out. That's what it was called, The Hangout. Stupid name... And I was the person-in-charge of that place, and it was kinda alright but making the schedule for the prefects to take care of that place was a bitch. Why? Cos some of them wouldn't report for duty and I have to do their duty. That was my greatest achievement, I think, when playing pranks on others. Why? Cos it was the most funniest one ever. The door to that place was lock from the inside and the padlock to lock the gate was hidden by one of the victims. So, how did me and my mates locked them? We used a strip of black electrical tape, and wind it into the hole where the padlock should go. Should be easy for them to break out, right? Wrong! They couldn't and they were banging on the door and what did we do? We were standing at the window laughing at them and when they start cursing at us, of course, we cursed at them back. We only removed the tape after we had our fun and luckily too. Cos my Design and Tech teacher came over, opened the door to the Hangout and asked them, what the fuck was going on... Of course she didn't see us. We were sitting at a nearby staircase, blocked by a wall. We quickly ran off lest she saw us. Of course, the next day, the teacher in charge pull all of those involve, in and we had a bit of an "Oprah" moment. And I had to put up a face and apologise to them. Fucking shit! What I did next? Didn't talk, didn't wanna see their face for a couple of weeks.

See... That's the outcome of me carrying out all the shit that goes on in my head. But don't worry, I've been controlling myself, not to carry out all the shit that goes on in my head. If I had done so, I won't be here typing this shit. I might be in the hospital or six feet under the ground...


"Life's a bitch, then you die..." - a line from one of my fave movies...

Friendster's fucked up!

All of you who visit my Friendster account from today onwards, will realise that I've deleted all my pics... Why? Personal reasons; for me to know, for you to find out... And Friendster's really fucked up cos....it's jsut fucked up... No need for me to explain why I said that. My bro said so too. He told me recently that he doesn't have a Friendster account cos it's just fucked up... I would much prefer to log into my Myspace account rather than Friendster cos it's better and the people there are more mature and open-minded. And it's also used worldwide... Friendster? Basically, most Singaporeans immature kids uses it. Well, some of you might ask - Why the fuck did I have a Friendster account? Simple reason for that... So, that I could find my primary and secondary schools' friends and keep in touch with them. But, what was I thinking? I don't think I know any of these people anymore. Some of them have totally changed that I don't know who I was talking to. And then, there'll be those who don't fucking reply when I send them a message! These people, I'm gonna start deleting them. Maybe, I should just fucking delete my Friendster account. Hmmm... Not a bad idea! Haha...

I'm been using the Internet service at my community centre and I would see some of them logging into their Friendster account and for the 'minahs', they look for 'mats' and vice versa. And then, maybe, they'll send messages to whomever they find attractive and flirt with them. That's what I think that they're doing... Oh wait! That's what they are doing, I've seen them. And no, thankfully, I didn't get any messages from this arseholes. Thank God!

Hahaha... I know it's been so long since I last update my blog and also some time, since I even visit my own blog to read the tag box... What's this shit about idiots in school? I don't know a shit, man! Yeah, I'm totally clueless!

Anyway, enough bout that! So, why have I not updated my blog for so long? Cos I'm a lazy bugger and cos my aunt's comp was down.

So, yeah, now, I would update my blog if I feel like it, and wouldn't do so if I don't feel like it...